I felt stuck in the bottom of a wishing well. I was desperate to shout what I wanted, but I didn’t know what that was. I knew only what it wasn’t.
You’re cheating yourself out of today. Today is calling to you, trying to get your attention, but you’re stuck on tomorrow, and today trickles away like water down a drain. You wake up the next morning and that today you wasted is gone forever. It’s now yesterday. Some of those moments may have had wonderful things in store for you, but now you’ll never know.
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living until the escape becomes the habit.
+ Escape + life + habit + addiction + cycle + living + eating disorder + bulimia + anorexia + stuck + entrenched + darkness + labyrinth
Afraid of being exposed, dying to be seen — there’s a dilemma for you.
+ Exposed + exposure + revealed + vulnerable + empty + seen + noticed + attention + affection + gridlocked + stuck + dilemma + isolate + crave + relationship + afraid + dying
Things outside you are projections of what’s inside you, and what’s inside you is a projection of what’s outside. So when you step into the labyrinth outside you, at the same time you’re stepping into the labyrinth inside.
+ projections + haruki murakami + labyrinth + inside + outside + life + reality + consciousness + thinking + feeling + mind + wisdom + stuck + philosophy + trap
You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.
+ Labyrinth + awesome + day + depression + escape + future + john green + keep going + life + never + nostalgia + past + present + stuck + eating disorder + recover + better
I wonder if any of them can tell from just looking at me that all I am is the sum of my total pain, a raw woundedness so extreme that it might be terminal. It might be terminal velocity, the speed of the sound of a girl falling down to a place from where she can’t be retrieved. What if I am stuck down here for good?
+ Elizabeth Wurtzel + prozac nation + depression + wounded + broken + pain + eating disorder + recover + terminal + falling + saved + stuck + forever + fear + darkness + raw
No matter where I go, I still end up me. What’s missing never changes. The scenery may change, but I’m still the same incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I think that lack itself is as close as I’ll come to defining myself.
I had that terrible feeling you get when you realize that you’re stuck with who you are, and there’s nothing you can do about it”.
+ Nick Hornby + feeling + self + personality + identity + stuck + permanent + nothing + terrible
I am stuck. I am stuck between wanting to get out of this terrible place and clinging on to something I’m not sure I know how to live without.
+ eating disorders + bulimia + anorexia + live + cling + terrible + stuck + recover
