People who develop eating disorders often live ‘out of order.’ They have difficulty trusting their instincts. Their relationships make them feel anxious instead of supported. So instead of engaging with the outer world from a position of internal strength, they end up living, in effect .. outside in.

— Gaining (via decisioni)
Posted on March 03, 2013   ( 1052)   via  › betterthanbones  

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One minute everything is fine, and the next, you are wondering how you managed to tear everything apart. Actions force things forward, and the grip you have on things is lost, and all at once. What you think you own, and order, and manipulate, is suddenly out of your hands.

— Grace Bowman, Thin
Posted on May 27, 2012   ( 19)  

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For someone who feels chronically chaotic or empty inside, the obsessions and compulsions of an eating disorder can provide a sense of internal coherence and can serve to calm, stimulate, and numb. As problematic as the symptoms are, they protect her from the disintegration and internal collapse she would otherwise experience.

-Sensing the Self
Posted on May 05, 2012   ( 10)  

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People who develop eating disorders often live ‘out of order.’ They have difficulty trusting their instincts. Their relationships make them feel anxious instead of supported. So instead of engaging with the outer world from a position of internal strength, they end up living, in effect .. outside in.

— Gaining (via betterthanbones)
Posted on April 27, 2012   ( 1052)   via  › betterthanbones  

+ eating disorder  + gaining  + aimee liu  + order  + trust  + instincts  + relationships  + strength  + internal  + living  + outside in  + anxious  + unsupported  + anxiety  + anorexia  + bulimia