People who develop eating disorders often live ‘out of order.’ They have difficulty trusting their instincts. Their relationships make them feel anxious instead of supported. So instead of engaging with the outer world from a position of internal strength, they end up living, in effect .. outside in.

— Gaining (via decisioni)
Posted on March 03, 2013   ( 1052)   via  › betterthanbones  

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Sometimes I feel like there’s a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there’s a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing… I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen.

— Practical Magic
Posted on December 28, 2012   ( 7)  

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We spend our life building higher fences and stronger locks, when the gravest dangers are already inside.

— Richard Paul Evans, The Sunflower
Posted on October 22, 2012   ( 6)  

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By looking to food rather than people to meet self-object needs, the eating disordered individual tried to circumvent the need for human self- object responsiveness and to avoid further disappointment and shame. Food is seen as trustworthy, while people are not.

— Sensing the Self
Posted on May 06, 2012   ( 3)  

+ bulimia  + external  + empty  + internal  + needs  + food  + void  + people  + shame  + trust  + disappointment  + relationships   

People who develop eating disorders often live ‘out of order.’ They have difficulty trusting their instincts. Their relationships make them feel anxious instead of supported. So instead of engaging with the outer world from a position of internal strength, they end up living, in effect .. outside in.

— Gaining (via betterthanbones)
Posted on April 27, 2012   ( 1052)   via  › betterthanbones  

+ eating disorder  + gaining  + aimee liu  + order  + trust  + instincts  + relationships  + strength  + internal  + living  + outside in  + anxious  + unsupported  + anxiety  + anorexia  + bulimia