Dean Koontz, One Door Away from Heaven
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All these traces of his life seemed to seize hold of him and say to him: “No, you won’t escape us and be different, you’ll be the same as you were: with doubts, an eternal dissatisfaction with yourself, vain attempts to improve, and failures, and an eternal expectation of the happiness that has eluded you and is not possible for you”.
— Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina
Posted on March 27, 2013 (♥ 19)
+ Leo Tolstoy + Anna Karenina + life + change + depression + dissatisfaction + failure + expectation + happiness + impossible + self-doubt + escape
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There is no one torturing you except yourself. There is nobody except yourself; your whole life is your work—your creation. Once you grasp this, things start changing… transforming. You can play at changing your hell into heaven, or, if you are in love with misery, create as much as you wish.
— Osho
Posted on October 16, 2012 (♥ 25)
+ osho + torture + self + creation + world + outlook + perspective + point of view + yourself + life + work + change + tranform + responsibility + love + misery + create + wish + play + hell + grasp + understand + power + depression + recovery
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Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything. Nothing’s going to disappear just because you can’t see what’s going on. In fact, things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes. That’s the kind of world we live in. Keep your eyes wide open. Only a coward closes his eyes. Closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won’t make time stand still.
— Haruki Murakami
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We are trapped by our illusions of perfection, depressed by the difficulty of the road ahead, overwhelmed by the patterns of defeat. Until we are convinced substantial change is possible, our lives remain little more than a waking dream.
— Perfectly Yourself
Posted on August 12, 2012 (♥ 62)
+ trapped + depression + eating disorder + binge + purge + restrict + change + recovery + future + patterns + symptoms + overwhelmed + defeat + road + possible + life + dream + living
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I was surprised, as always, at how easy the act of leaving was, and how good it felt. The world was suddenly rich with possibility.
— Jack Kerouac, On the Road (via thesnapediaries)
Posted on August 01, 2012 (♥ 213) via › honeyforthehomeless
+ leaving + recovery + possibility + hope + world + life + eating disorder + depression + jack kerouac + on the road + change
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No matter where I go, I still end up me. What’s missing never changes. The scenery may change, but I’m still the same incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I think that lack itself is as close as I’ll come to defining myself.
— Haruki Murakami
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When we make our misery, we sometimes cling to it even when we want so bad to change, because the misery is something we know. The misery is comfortable.
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Posted on July 05, 2012 (♥ 8)
+ dean koontz + depression + misery + pain + comfort + comfortable + familiar + known + change + cling + let go + miserable
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No matter where I go, I still end up me. What’s missing never changes. The scenery may change, but I’m still the same incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I think that lack itself is as close as I’ll come to defining myself.
— Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun (via betweenheavenandmisery)
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Somewhere in the back of my brain there exists this certainty: The body is no more than a costume, and can be changed at will. That the changing of bodies, like costumes, would make me into a different character, a character who might, finally, be all right.
— Marya Hornbacher, Wasted
Posted on May 27, 2012 (♥ 9)
+ accepted + alright + anorexia + body + bulimia + change + character + costume + eating disorders + wasted + marya hornbacher
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Some things are too terrible to grasp at once. Other things - naked, sputtering, indelible in their horror - are too terrible to really grasp ever at all.It is only later, in solitude, in memory that the realization dawns: when the ashes are cold; when the mourners have departed; when one looks around and finds oneself - quite to one’s surprise - in an entirely different world.
— ― Donna Tartt, The Secret History
Posted on May 06, 2012 (♥ 7)
+ grief + depression + shock + mourning + grasp + believe + solititude + different + change + surprise + horror + terrible + traumatic
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Sounds like an illusion to me. Lives don’t change. We simply become more comfortable with our core misery.
— Dr David Worth, Bored to Death (via occultette)
Posted on May 03, 2012 (♥ 494) via › occultette
+ illusion + change + lives + misery + depression + hopeless + comfortable
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That’s the problem with reality, that’s the fallacy of therapy: It assumes that you will have a series of revelations, or even just one little one, and that these various truths will come to you and will change your life completely. It assumes that insight alone is a transformative force. But the truth is, it doesn’t work that way. In real life, every day you might come to some new conclusion about yourself and about the reasoning behind your behavior, and you can tell yourself that this knowledge will make all the difference. But in all likelihood, you’re going to keep on doing the same old things. You’ll still be the same person. You’ll still cling to your destructive, debilitating habits because you emotional tie to them is so strong that the stupid things you are really the only things you’ve got that keep you centered and connected. They are the only things about you that you you.
— ― Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation
Posted on April 28, 2012 (♥ 7)
+ Elizabeth Wurtzel + Prozac Nation + therapy + fallacy + revelation + destructive + cling + change + tranformation
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Individuals with anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa are tormented by a pervasive fear of life and distrust of others.. While there is tremendous variation in the ways patients describe their fears, they can be organised under general themes:
fear of fat, fear of going out of control, fear of change, fear of emotional flooding, fear of abandonment and loss of approval, fear of clinical interventions and distrust of practitioners, fear of losing the eating disorder as a coping strategy.
— The illness experience (via betterthanbones)
Posted on April 27, 2012 (♥ 213) via › betterthanbones
+ anorexia + bulimia + eating disorder + change + fear + fat + abandonement + emotional flooding + coping
