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People who develop eating disorders often live ‘out of order.’ They have difficulty trusting their instincts. Their relationships make them feel anxious instead of supported. So instead of engaging with the outer world from a position of internal strength, they end up living, in effect .. outside in.

Gaining (via decisioni)

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Many never feel safe enough to relax yet find in eating disorders an pervasive mode of escape. Here’s how the escape works: you flee anxiety by pulling into yourself, you purge your fear by vomiting it up, you become so obsessive about your body that nothing else in the world seems to matter. The result is that you feel you have this body- your contained world- under control”.

Gaining, Aimee Liu
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‘What’s wrong with me?’ If there was an anthem for eating disorders, this would be the chorus. What’s wrong with me that I can’t starve away? Or exercise away? Or stuff into silence? What’s wrong with me that I can’t feel, that I can’t express- that I can’t get rid of?

Aimee Liu, Gaining
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People who develop eating disorders often live ‘out of order.’ They have difficulty trusting their instincts. Their relationships make them feel anxious instead of supported. So instead of engaging with the outer world from a position of internal strength, they end up living, in effect .. outside in.

Gaining (via betterthanbones)

(via parisstateofmind)