Being home has been a complete surprise. I honestly have had such a good time, I don’t want to leave. My step-father’s niece whose 24 and in law school came to our house with her boyfriend for a few days. She was seriously the nicest girl ever, I had never met her before yet I felt like we had been good friends for years. I was so nervous it would be awkward, but it wasn’t in the least. It’s funny when I tell people I want to be a psychologist, I feel like it almost gives permission for people to tell me all their issues and life struggles. She told me she had suffered with horrible anxiety, panic attacks and an eating disorder. I didn’t want to lamely add in oh “me too”, because how fake does that sound, so I just listened to her story which was oddly similar to my own. We drank (alot) of margaritas and tequila shots and swam in the pool. Her boyfriend was really nice too, I had a few post-its on the counter, one with things I needed to buy like sandals, heels, mascara, purse, ect. and another with my SAT scores and he looked at the two lists and was like damn. What I see here is a gorgeous girl who is seriously intelligent with killer SAT scores. Then he was like damn you are the whole package. I know it seems stupid but that made me feel really good.
They left and my mom and I spent the whole day shopping which was so nice! We are getting along really well which is just a complete shock to me. This has never happened. We’re going shopping again today, I seriously don’t want to leave. I go back tomorrow morning at the crack of dawn! I meet my new roommate and suitemates and OMG I’m going to not even think about it for now. I also think I’m going to rush for a sorority which is in a few days. GAH. I’ve been purging like once a day which is beyond amazing for me. I’m just hoping that lasts when I get back to school. I’m going to try really hard to not let myself slide back down into that cycle of hell. xo.